20 weeks

My life is so consumed with my poor dog Bailey right now that I apologize to my little ones inside for the stress I have been under this last week. The girls are doing well and have been active, I notice that baby A is either more active or maybe just closer to the front of the belly. It was cute the other day when I felt baby A moving a ton and then she must have kicked her sister because baby B gave a big quick move out of the way move. When imagining what it would be like to carry twins I always wondered if I would be able to tell the different between the two, and you diffidently do. Pregnancy is going well and smoothly and I am very thankful for that especially now since my life has been pretty consumed by my dogs issues. But I am having some growing pains that do cause me to wake up a couple times in the night worried something is going wrong. I wonder if my stomach will just continue to go outward or if I will start to expand more widely. I am probably almost as big or just as big as I got when I delivered Kayla, so I am excited to see what kind of pregnant woman I will look like? Bring on the stretch marks.

Psalm 37: 3-4

"Delight yourself in the Lord": Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Moon Broken

Had to post some of Kayla's cuteness. While looking for the moon in the sky the other night Kayla began to be sad. We asked why she was sad, she said, "oh no, the moon is broken." The moon was only a half moon and she was concerned because it wasn't full, she's so cute. :)

All is good, now we PRAY, PRAY, PRAY!!

Alright it happened we got the call to move forward with IUI, had to sign the multiples waiver and we were very happy to do so. Mike went in for his portion at 11am, things went just fine. I came in at 1pm, excited and nervous at the same time, I don't always do well with IUIs. But the nurse got through and we are good to go, now we pray. Lord, if this is your timing we pray that we will be blessed with another child. You told us to be fruitful and multiply we hope to do so with your blessings today. AMEN. :) Keep us in your prayers.

Follicle Check

Had my follicle check today at 7am yet again, I really don't like those early mornings. But it turned out well, ultrasound tech went to the right side first and there were my three big ones measuring 19mm, 18mm and 16mm so two are already considered mature the 16mm is borderline. The left side had the multiple 9mm's just like last time and one at 10mm, so that's good no big growth. They said I would probably do trigger tonight and IUI on Tuesday. I wanted my trigger shot right away I still get nervous that Dr. Minjarez will see my numbers and not let me continue. But Tuesday is not the best day for IUI, Mike has a meeting with BBBS from New Mexico about the Sports Buddies program and he has to be there, it's from 8am to 12pm. So we asked if it was alright to do the IUI in the afternoon, they said that would be fine but it would need to be at Lone Tree office and not Rose, Lone Tree is much further for Mike to drive. But we were going to make it happen and just praying that I would get a call back about instructions for the IUI. We went to church, then lunch with Mom at Red Lobster. Still no call I started to get worried that it was taking to long and I wasn't going to be able to continue on. But at about 3:30pm our prayers were answered. I got a call from the nurse who told me that my estrogen levels showed I had already started ovulating on my own, so IUI must be tomorrow, I would need to do half the trigger shot at 8pm to help the ovulation. This was wonderful, wonderful news I get to continue on and Mike doesn't have to worry about the big mess of Tuesday. We are so excited I even did a little happy fertility dance. When I had my cancelled cycle a while back and had almost close to this same situation I asked again and again if there was a paper I could sign to note that I understood the risk of multiples and wanted to continue. They said there was no form for me to sign. But guess what...I got that waiver I knew there had to be one. We have a higher risk of twins because of the two mature follicles. But I had two mature follicles with Kayla as well and we were blessed with only her. :) Then we have a very small chance of triplets so that is why I had to sign the paper, noting that it was alright to move forward and we are ready and prepared for what ever outcome might come. We are beyond excited and hope this is our cycle. :) Mike will go in for wash at 11am tomorrow and I have the IUI at 1pm. YEA!!!

Slow and Steady

So I had my ultrasound yesterday and I was left in a state of wonder. I went in around 2pm and they first looked at the left side where I had no growth all of the follicles were still 9mm or smaller. The right side however had three, she measured them and they turned out the be 13mm, 11mm and 10mm. So in three days my follicles or at least the largest one has only grown 3mm. That's slow but steady, at least we are seeing growth and not too many are growing. I think this is all good, I get my blood draw and have to head out with out getting to talk to a nurse. I don't get to chat with a nurse because I am growing so slow they wouldn't know what to tell me. Ultrasound needs to be sent to Dr. Minjarez and we will figure out the next steps from there. So I wait, around 6pm I get a call from Lisa and she says we are still good to go. I will do another 75IU's that night and maybe be doing two more depending on my estrogen level. I should get a call today on weather I should do two more days or not, so I am in a weird place. I get nervous about the three follicles that are growing and although I would of course like to always move forward I fear I would get to the end and then Dr. Minjarez is going to say we have to cancel. But I am hopeful I didn't even know if I would be able to still continue with the three I have. So yeah, that's where we are at so hopeful and fearful at the same time seems normal. :) I will update when I hear from the Dr. later today.

Cyst Check, 1st Follicle Check

So last Saturday I had my cyst check, I know I sound like a broken record but I hate them. My appointment was at 7:15am, I get in and called back right away. Ultrasound prep then check, all resting follicles no cysts....NO WAY!! We are done in five minutes then I go out to the desk where I am asked to pay $170. I wasn't even at the doctors office for more than 15 minutes. My first follicle check was a range of emotions, I went in at 7:45am on Sunday and was glad Mike was able to join me. We get in and notice 6 follicles on the left between 7mm to 9mm and 7 follicles on the right mostly 9mm one at 10mm and one at 8mm. The nurse came in to tell me what I already knew, "you have a lot of follicles" if they all continue to grow your cycle may be cancelled. Right then and there I get discouraged, more than anything else I do not want another cancelled cycle. I get home and start my research, when I had a cancelled cycle last time Nicole told me that the other doctor would sometimes perform a follicle reduction so that you can take out the extra follicles but leave the nice larger ones that would ovulate. She didn't say that Dr. Minjarez does that procedure but I am educating myself about it and hope I might be a candidate. I was down for the rest of the day and wondered if I should even continue on with the next ultrasound because I figured Dr. Minjarez wouldn't let me continue. But then around 12pm I got a call from one of the nurses that Dr. Minjarez wants me to do three more days of follistim injection at 75IUs. This call really took me back I had "so many follicles" why would she risk them all growing bigger? So more research, I learned that a resting follicle is between 3mm to 6mm and on cycle day 10 my largest follicle was 10mm so that is not a lot of growth in 10 days. Usually a follicle will grow about 2mm a day, so my thought is that Dr. Minjarez wants to give the follicles a chance to boost in growth and we all just pray that only one or two take charge. Personally I hope for two, I got pregnant with Kayla with two mature follicles so I feel two is my best chance. Because I still feel at risk for a cancelled cycle I have already e-mailed Lisa to ask if I can do a follicle reduction instead of cancelling. Currently I am still waiting to hear back, so I am back to being more hopeful but also realistic and again just pray I don't have to cancel so much money is put into this process and having to cancel and lose it all is not a good feeling. So I will see when I hear back from Lisa, hopefully soon and we will go from there.

Medical Records

So Mike and I decided we are staying with Dr. Minjarez for this coming cycle. I have already contacted Lisa and our first ultrasound is set for Saturday August 4th at 7:15am. I don't love the time but we are diffidently ready to get started. But the hard part about this all is the medical records after Mike and I decided we weren't going to stay with Dr. Woodford I went to her office and asked for my records so I could have them and bring them upstairs. But I guess that even if medical records belong to me I can not have them. I had to sign a paper allowing them to release them then have that paper signed by Dr. Woodford before I can have my own copy, and because I came in on a Friday I had to wait until Monday. I called Monday Dr. Woodford had signed the paper so I asked if they could send them by fax upstairs. They said they could be they were real busy so it would be later, so I e-mailed Lisa and asked her to let me know when they got them upstairs. Monday came to an end and Lisa e-mailed me to say they didn't get the records. There are four papers they need to send up so I wasn't understanding why it was so difficult. Tuesday came I waited until afternoon before I called them again and asked if they had sent records yet. Well on Tuesday they decided they couldn't just send my records up anymore, they wanted to charge me $20 for the four pieces of paper to send up. I was so upset they could fax it, I said I would personally come by and I would bring the papers up to Dr. Minjarez they then told me that Dr. Woodford required the $20 for the papers when I asked if the other Dr. charged the same I found out she didn't. So now I am just thinking Dr. Woodford is wanting whatever she can get out of me. So I e-mail Lisa again and ask if she can take my word on my records that my pregnancy test is negative Thyroid is 3.12 and I was put back on meds and all my insulin levels came back normal. Lisa said that would be fine but they still need the cyst check, at this point I am just ready to get started and although a cyst check for me with no history of cysts is just a waste of money we are ready for our first appointment on Saturday. What an experience glad to be done with the other doctor and move forward.

Try #4

Alright well here we go again. After taking a break from fertility treatments I didn't have a period for three months. I finally started a period at the end of last month and it lasted 25 days, yes almost a whole month. I will take it as a clearing of the female system to get ready for a baby. :) Mike and I have changed some things up since our last cycle. We were going to try cycle #4 with Dr. Minjarez our normal doctor but it felt I couldn't trust her word anymore. When I had asked if I could please use injections for my next cycle over the phone the answer was yes. When I called in to tell them I had started a period they asked me to come in on cycle day 5. Usually I don't have to go in on cycle day 5 so I asked why. They said that Minjarez wanted to check out my follicles before proceeding with the injections. What first came to my mind was for her to see one follicle and say "ok looks like you have one good one, let's not to injection this round." I know my body, one follicle does not work for me I need more than that to conceive, so I looked elsewhere. I found an RE that's actually in their same building but a floor down. Her name is Dr. Woodford, I was able to have a phone consult with her a few weeks back to see if her plan would be different from Dr. M's she said it would. She is willing to listen more to her patients and word work with me more. So I made my appointed to an insulin resistance test and meeting. I was the first patient in the building that day and was proud of myself for even being early. I had told them about the insulin draw and because that is a three our test I thought they would do that first thing. Instead they didn't say a thing about and call me back 20 minutes later to talk to Dr. Woodford, I then waited another 20 minutes and found out that Dr. Woodford wasn't even in the building yet for my appointment. When she came in, she came in scrubs and looked nothing like the picture I saw of her on the internet, I honestly didn't think it was her until she introduced herself. I was already annoyed that even though I was early to the appointment I had to wait an additional 40 minutes just to talk to her and repeat everything I had told her on the phone, it's like she had no idea I had ever talked to her. I brought Dr. M's medical records in with me and was already hesitant to hand them over. But she took them made copies then told me that she really liked Dr. M and would probably do the same things she did. I couldn't believe she said that, she had told me on the phone all the different things she would have done. But now she has changed her mind, when I had had the cancelled cycle I had asked if she would have let me proceed she said she would but then today she changed her mind and said she would have canceled like Minjarez did. So I am just getting more angry and upset that I brought my medical records into her in the first place. She also told me on the phone that if I was on a bleed I couldn't be pregnant so she would not need to do a pregnancy test each time and if I had no history of cysts she would not do a cyst check. Well after I spoke with her I asked about the insulin draw in which she had no idea what I was talking about and said I probably wouldn't be albe to do it today. But that was the whole reason I fasted last night and in the morning as well as why I had come in so early. So it was going go happen and I was going make sure of it, I went to get blood drawn and she then told I needed a pregnancy test because well I just have too. I was on a period so she was going back on her word, after the blood draw she asked for....yes a cyst check the ultrasound she said I wouldn't need if I didn't have a history of cysts and we just went over my history where I have none. So I am already done with this place feeling uncomfortable and I feel Dr. Woodford is unsure with herself and her practice, just doing whatever Dr. M would have done. I know that CCRM would require pregnancy test, and cyst check so I let it happen and decide I will just send over paper work at the end of the week. So I don't know yet if I am regretting this decision to try and find another dr or if it's just better to know I am with the right person but it was a frustrating day and I am ready to be done with it.

Results

Saturday April 14th was our busy day, I had school this Saturday so I was told I could get me blood drawn with out an appointment at the Lone Tree office and get results later that day. In the past we have gotten results around 3 or 4pm. So forgetting about the time requirement for same day results I got the the office around 9:30am and knew I needed to get blood in by 10am. It was a close call since I wasn't called back until after 9:45am, but blood work was done and I was then on my way to class. This cycle has been so different Mike and I have been busy and taking it easy with our thoughts about pregnancy hopes. I had a big resource notebook due for class so I had been focused on that for the last couple of days. Recently I have also gotten a couple of calls from parents looking for child care, so when I got a call from a random number during class with a message I thought it must be another parent. We had a small break between groups in class so I checked my message, not a good idea since the message was results from my blood draw. It was negative yet again, I felt so good about this cycle so hopeful with the third time's a charm and the IUI went better than we thought. So when I got the news I just lost it, which I felt horrible for in class because there was a group presenting and I had to get up and leave class in tears. I really didn't think that call was from the doctors office otherwise I wouldn't have listened to it. I personally felt horrible then also felt bad when the teacher left the presentation to come out and check on me. She said it was fine for me to leave and grabs my bags for me so I could leave which was so sweet. As I am posting this late, it's been a very rough week for me. I have been so sad, I have been feeling depressed and discouraged. Infertility is so hard to understand it's like losing someone you love and it happens so quickly. I go through the grieving process with each negative result and it's hard on me. I know and thank God every every day for our most precious miracle Kayla and we are so grateful for her. I had just pictured my life differently and with more children and get so discouraged when it doesn't happen as well as the money loss since infertility each try cost more than $500. But I am getting to the accepting point now, we are taking an infertility break until after Kayla's birthday in June. We hope to have a small vacation and get our minds off of things for a while and focus on ourselves as well as our wonderful daughter. When we are ready to try again I will let you know. :)

IUI Day

Well today is the day we go in for IUI, I am nervous because I don't seem to do well with IUI's. Because of my incompetent cervix Dr. Minjarez wouldn't let me do the cervix softener that worked so wonderfully with Kayla. Our appointment is at Lone Tree where we conceived Kayla, Mike went in at 7am this morning for his part, then waited for me to get there at 9am. During his wait he was able to go on a small hike around the Lone Tree area and really enjoyed his time. I got there at 9am and they weren't ready for me yet, pretty busy actually which surprised me for a Saturday. But we finally got in a ready, because of my past experience with IUI's they had an ultrasound technician ready at the door if needed. Mike's mobility was 83% which is the same percentage as Kayla was. :) IUI started at 9:34, they had a little trouble pushing through at first so the ultrasound tech came in after some pushing on a very full bladder the nurse made it through and it wasn't too bad. We ended at 9:43 which is fun for Mike and I because 3 and 7 are OUR numbers. So now we pray.....pray......pray and pray some more, I start my prometium tonight and we gear up for the two week wait. Keep us in your prayers. :)

Day 15

Well I am excited to post that we get to make it to the final step this cycle. I went in today at 1:45 and had one 21mm follicle the other was 11mm. Although I am very excited about this my brain still thinks I need two mature follicles to conceive because that's what I had with Kayla. But I am staying positive and looking forward to IUI on Saturday. I will trigger tonight at 9pm, Mike will go in early 7am, Saturday morning and then I go in for IUI at 9am. I hope and pray this IUI goes well, I don't have the best luck with IUI's. But we will have it done at the Lone Tree office where I conceived Kayla so I'm hoping it's a good sign.

Please send prayers our way on Saturday. :)

Day 12

Well so far so good, I had 7 follicles today. One taking the lead at 13mm another somewhat close behind at 9mm. The rest were 8mm and smaller, my usual nurse Lisa was not in today so I spoke with a new nurse that said everything should be good to go for IUI. Our prayer is for the first biggest follicle to continue and the rest to stay behind and not catch up to much. So next appointment is this Thursday for another follicle check. We are hoping for the 13mm follicle to be 16mm or bigger and for the others to be smaller than 16mm. So I will catch you up then, IUI could be scheduled for Saturday or Sunday this weekend.

Day 5

Appointment #1, I started letrezole on day 3 and Dr. Minjarez wants to do just a letrezole cycle. But if my follicles don't grow well on just letrezole she doesn't mind adding an injection to help them out. So I had my first ultrasound today and not much too notice yet. So because things are staying quiet I was told Dr. Minjarez will probably "baby me" and let them grow slowly so I don't have to cancel again. Next appointment will be day 12 next Monday. Hope we see some growth then!!

Try #3

They say third time is a charm right. Well Mike and I are going to try again with this cycle. At the beginning I always have to do two dump things that I feel are just a waste of money. I have to get a blood drawn pregnancy test that proves I'm not pregnant even though I am already on my period. Second I have to go in for an ultrasound to make sure I have not large cysts that could interrupt a cycle. I never have and always try and get out of this money sucker, but can't seem to fight it enough to get out of it. So I already went in for my blood draw today and should have results by this afternoon. Then I have my ultrasound at 2:45p, here we go again.

REALLY!!!!

Well I guess yesterday wasn't over yet. I was getting excited about not having started my period yet and bought a pregnancy test. I get home go to the bathroom to do the test and there is blood. Really.....really now I waited this long to see this now, after I just took a hopeful test and got all excited. I am so sad, and so mad that it would take this long to start. Now I know we didn't get pregnant because we didn't try at the right time, I ovulated later than I thought. I really don't like this infertility road so many ups and downs. It's going to be a hard day today, I am so sad. :(

March 14th

Well today is the day we have been waiting for. Dr. Minjarez told me I could start my period as soon as March 4th or as late as March 14th. If I had not started my period on March 14th to call and get started on meds to start a period. Well we had some different plans and decided we wanted to try on our own from this cancelled cycle so we are still hoping and praying we may be pregnant right now? I have had some normal symptoms that us women get from pms or pregnancy, so I am hoping they are pregnancy related. I will go in Friday for a blood draw and let you all know then what the results are. :) Keep us in your prayers.

The two week wait...

This two week wait between when we tried and when we pray no period will come is so rough. I try so hard not to think about it, but then I'm cramping and I think maybe I will start my period. Or my boobs are tender so does that mean I might be pregnant? So hard not to think about what I am thinking about. I have past my first possible period day already Dr. Minjarez said I could start my period as soon as March 4th or as late March 14th. So March 4th has past which is exciting, I just wish period symptoms and pregnancy symptoms didn't have to be so similar. So tomorrow is day 28 so I could possibly start my period right on time tomorrow but of course no one wants that to happen right? So we will see what tomorrow brings, tomorrow will be a distracting day though so that should be nice. I do observation at "The Village" for school tomorrow so my mind should hopefully be consumed with other thoughts. I of course will update you all if the dreaded period starts or hopefully with an update on when I will go in for a blood draw. :) Please keep your prays coming.

Kayla Sick

Well we have been some very fortunate parents in that Kayla has not been sick very often in her first years. But this past week she has been very sick, not just her but almost everyone in child care as well. On Tuesday I have six children and all but one wasn't sick, so I called that one child's parents and asked them not to bring their child to this sick home until I disinfected. But I wasn't able to do much because Kayla was so out of it, she started with a 102 temp. and sleep a lot so we knew something was coming. Then later that day I got a text that one of the babies had RSV, so scary. Thankfully it was the very early stages so no hospitalization was needed, good news since he is only 10 months old. As Wednesday came I was open again but noticed another child wasn't feeling to well, his temp was 101.5 and he had to go home and I later found out that he had a mild case of RSV as well. I checked Kayla's temp again and she had gone up to 103, nervous that she was getting what the boys had, we started Tylenol and the humidifier hoping it would start to help. By Friday Kayla's temp reached 104, she wasn't getting better she was only getting worse. Knowing that two kids had RSV I knew I needed to take Kayla in to make sure she didn't have it as well. Appointment was at 2:30pm, we found out good news that Kayla did not have RSV and her lungs sounded great but bad news she had a horrible double ear infection, poor thing. She was prescribed Amoxicillin and ear numbing drops we noticed a difference right away when we put the drops in. Kayla had not been sleeping well and after those drops were in she had a great afternoon nap. So she has been getting better and finally back to her normal self. We are just so blessed that this was her very first ear infection and she is 20 months old which is pretty amazing. :)

So frustrated!!

So I got the worse news yesterday. I had my follicle check appointment yesterday at 2:45pm. I was nervous going into it because my biggest worry would be for them to cancel the cycle. When looking at the ultrasound I started crying already, I still have eight on my left and five on my right side. I noticed they were pretty large in size but did notice that I had one taking the lead on each side like last time. This gave me some hope thinking I might be still able to go forward if the others aren't to large. So I was very anxious to get the measurements. After ultrasound my measurements came out to be one at 17mm one at 15mm and one at 14mm. I was happy with this, I have been told before that 18 to 22mm is mature and ready to release so knowing that I only had one that was close at 17mm I should be good. Well I was transferred to the consulting offices and it took a while longer for Lisa to come in and I felt that only meant one thing...bad news. The first thing Lisa my nurse said when she came in was you did so well this cycle, almost to well. She said she talked to Dr. Minjarez and they would like to cancel the rest of this cycle not because I didn't do well but because of my incompetent cervix. I was so mad, I didn't want to cancel I said I know the risks my OB doctor knows the risks. I will get a cerclage early I will get an even better cerclage if twins were to happen and so on. Lisa told me there was nothing I could do, no paper for me to sign, nothing. I am sure my body language was not pleasant, I asked her if I didn't have an incompetent cervix if they would move forward with the cycle, and she said yes. That is where I wanted to cry, I already have infertility issues but now I have to add on the incompetent cervix that won't allow me to continue with what is considered a good cycle. I asked what the biggest risk was with this cycle, they said the risk of twins was 35% and I would be at risk for miscarriage. So I asked yet again if I know the risk I still can't move on? Lisa just shook her head then I was just hopeless. I said there is nothing I can do or say to move forward? Lisa just shook her head, then said that Dr. Minjarez doesn't even want me to do injections next time she only wants to do letrezole which is basically clomid but without the thickened cervical mucus. We never got close with clomid so it makes me nervous that it won't work and will just be a waste of money. But then at the same time if I get more follicles in an injection cycle it might be a waste of money if they don't let us move forward. If you can't sense my frustration it's up there! So I leave the dr's office with no hope and disappointment, I thought I had my own choice. I thought I had more options I never knew that not only would I have to deal with my infertility but that my incompetent cervix would play such an unfortunate role as well. But I have a wonderful husband, mom and friends that have been comforting me during this time and I am so thankful. I will still keep you updated as we figure out new plans.

Phone Call

Here we go with another day of nerves. Lisa called around 2pm today to tell me the following, "Dr. Minjarez is not happy with how many follicles you have and is considering a cancel because of incompetent cervix." This is not what I wanted to hear today, I wanted to hear that they want me to do my trigger shot tomorrow night and IUI on Friday. Now my head is going crazy, I get so mad at my cervix if I didn't have IC this would be no issue at all. But now I have to go in for ultrasound tomorrow at 2:45pm to make sure the other follicles aren't catching up to the biggest that are taking the lead. I had one at 15mm and one at 14mm, today they would be at 17mm and 15mm so one more day from prime time to release. I am just praying over and over again that we can continue with this cycle. Wondering how much say I have, anything and everything is going through my mind right now. Cerclages, bed-rest, twins, preemies, hyper-stimulation. I would do all of it again in a second to have the chance for another baby. All I want is the chance, I can't turn this down. Please God let us be able to continue with this cycle and we just pray that we will be blessed. So I guess I can leave you at that, appointment is tomorrow I will update you then.

Appointment #2

I was very anxious for this appointment to get here today. Yesterday I was having some cramping and what felt like my left ovary was very full. It would get worse when sitting and when my bladder was full. So like many I am sure I googled it and seemed to be pretty normal I was just nervous that maybe a follicle had already matured and I was going to ovulate before we were ready. But today was my appointment and as nervous as I was it turned out just fine. Phew!! My uterine lining was looking great so I knew right away I hadn't ovulated already. She looked at the right side first where I had about five follicles but only one was taking the lead at 14mm. The others were around 6mm to 8mm. Then to the left side where I had been cramping, now it makes since I have about 8 follicles on the left side but again only one maturing follicle that is taking the lead at 15mm. The others were about the same 5mm to 8mm, so my first thought was that us women only ovulate on one side so I would be good to go because I only had one maturing follicle on each side not really two. But I had to have the "talk" with the nurse who explained to me that Dr. Minjarez would need my permission to go forward with the cycle or she would cancel because there were two maturing follicles and I have that unfortunate incompetent cervix. So now I know that regardless of what side the mature follicles are on using my trigger shot will release all the possible eggs for hopeful implantation. So there is a chance of twins, but we also had two mature follicles with Kayla and we got our one precious gift, so you never know. We of course are just praying for one miracle child but are ready if God chooses to bless us with two. :) Right now I am just waiting for tomorrow, the two follicles and my permission to move forward needs to be reviewed with Dr. Minjarez. Then we will either trigger the follicles tomorrow or Wednesday, we are hoping for Wednesday because my follicles will be at their best that day close to 19mm or 18mm rather than 15mm and 16mm which are considered almost mature. So I may just trigger or I might have one more ultrasound and IUI on either Thursday or Friday. Please keep us in your prayers that we will be blessed again. I will update you when I get my phone call tomorrow.

Update

Well I just took injection #2 last night. It is a weird feeling I am having this last week. This time just seems to be so causal and I hope that's a good thing? So changes that happened were that when I was successful in getting pregnant with Kayla I was given a pill to soften my cervix. Reason why was because I had bad IUI's hurtful IUI's that made me cry, so the pill really helped. I hoped I might get the pill again since my last IUI in August was a rough one as well. But my incompetent cervix doesn't help my cause and Dr. Minjarez didn't want to risk my chance of losing a baby. Which is of course a good thing but now I am nervous about it all. I guess I first just need to pray that we don't have too many mature follicles and we are good to go for IUI. Anyway just wanted to add the quick update, next appointment is on Monday, hope we get some good news. :)

Appointment #1

First appointment today, I finished provera on Wednesday and started my period on Saturday. Usually they like for me to come in on cycle day 1 or 2 but because it was a weekend Monday worked just fine. So cycle day 3 I went in for an ultrasound to make sure there weren't any large cysts that would prevent an egg from releasing. Thankfully the ovaries looked good and we are set to go. Letrozole tabs and Follistim injections will start tonight, I am really excited to try again and pray everything goes smoothly.

Letrozole tonight, injections on 2/13, 2/15 and 2/17 this time around. Different from last time where I did injections every day on cycle days 5 though 9.

Mike would buy Kayla a Pony.

Mike and I went to a wedding for a friend of his and we brought Kayla along. She did so well, we enjoyed dancing with her and showing her off. But Kayla did something for her daddy that he will never forget that night. While about to leave Kayla kept pulling on Mike's face so that he would look at her. When he finally looked over and said "what Kayla?" she took out her binky and gave her daddy a big kiss, then put the binky back in. Mike said his heart just melted, and he went on to say that if want after that kiss "I will buy you a pony!" So sweet, we just love our little girl.

Trying Again

So reading back on my blog August 29th was when we last tried to get pregnant and results were negative. After that had happened I lost a full time family because the dad had lost his job. And as you know if you have infertility issues trying for babies is not cheap, so we had to wait till we had the money to try again. Thankfully this last month has given us the income we need as well as doing our taxes early. :) So we are trying again this month of February, we would love your prayers that God will bless us with another miracle and I will keep you updated on the progress.

Thank you.