Jordyn Day 6

Jordyn had a wonderful day today, we got a call from the doctor and are happy to say the horrible CPAPP is off!!! Hooray, we sure didn't like that machine and we know Jordyn didn't either, she is on a bit of pressure oxygen now and it is just through nasal canula so we get to see her pretty face now. One thing they didn't tell us on the phone was that Jordyn is also in an open crib so she is maintaining her temp, she is also increasing on feedings everyday and today she is up to 30cc's (one ounce.) So we are getting closer they say that she might be able to feed from a bottle tomorrow so we will have to wait and see, fingers crossed.

Jordyn Day 5

No big changes for Jordyn today, she is still on CPAPP, I wish she could get that off. Mike and I were able to go in and hold her, then she also got a visit from David and Cheryl. They had not met Jordyn yet so it was nice that they could see her, they were at the hospital today because Cheryl's sister delivered her third son at Swedish. They are still increasing Jordyn's feedings everyday so she is getting close to being back at birth weight. Hope we are getting closer, it seems we are so close but so far away from bringing her home.

35 weeks

35 weeks this week and I feel huge. It feels like the babies are finding any unused space possible in my stomach and filling it up. I don't get hungry and all I want to do is sleep all the time. My poor daughter is just the best daughter in the world as she brings me stuffed animals when I drift off on the couch. I can't wait to take her on a walk, or to the park again but am so blessed that she plays so well by herself and thankful for the Disney channel right now too. This period of time will probably be the most amount of time she will watch this much tv. Although I don't sleep much and still scratch all over all the time I am so thankful I am still pregnant. I am beyond excited that I will get to hear my girls cry for the first time as I never got to hear Kayla's for over a week. Then the thought of being able to hold my babies moments after I have them is almost unreal. I had my appointment with Dr. Becker on Wednesday this week, they checked me for group B this apt and made sure I was not dilating. I have been feeling funny, but my blood pressure has stayed steady and low actually. But I was sent over to get blood work to check my liver and gall bladder to make sure I wasn't feeling funny because of a different problem. Everything is coming back normal, I am not dilated at all, my blood work came back normal I just feel this way because I have two babies in me. My group B was also perfect as normal is 0 to 5 and I am 2.99, so everything is really going well. Although I wish I were more hungry these babies need to grow so much and I just never feel like eating, don't worry I do eat I just snack all day. I am getting nervous and excited for next week, I will be 36 weeks on Monday and get my cerclage out. I have about a 50/50 chance of going into labor or keeping them in there. Because it's hard to tell how the babies are positioned now I get to do another ultrasound on Monday as well. They will check approximate weights and see if Baby A is head down. I still pray for that every day but have also accepted that if a c-section is what I need it is meant to be. I would love to stay pregnant until I am 37 weeks because these babies would not have a label of preemie attached them them instead they would both be considered term. But Mike and I are also very ready for their arrival. It is getting so close......so close!

34 weeks

The beginning of week 34 started well and calm. Mike had to do some very important work related stuff on Monday so we prayed that babies would stay in. They did, Tuesday was a bit off as I was feeling a bit nauseous and Mike had a snow day that so it was nice to have him there, this week I just feel more funny. But Mike kept thanking me for keeping the babies in as he was really doing well on catching up and getting ready for them more at work. I had my appointment with Dr. Becker on Thursday, I was able to get the stitches removed from the biopsy I got for my PUPPS. I asked a few questions, and the babies were doing great with strong heart rates. I was tired and itchy like normal but feeling good that we were getting close to 35 weeks another great milestone to get to. But on Saturday we had a scare that morning we had Bob came over to help Mike fix the water damage we have in our downstairs bathroom. The appraiser had said it would help us in our appraisal if we fixed that area, Bob was also able to fix the door that was very horribly made in our laundry room since it was literally tearing off the wall. But I was feeling very funny that day, I had had no sleep that night before usually baby A lets me sleep on my right side more comfortably then baby B likes so I usually always sleep on my right side. Well baby A was no ok with that Friday night and I could not get comfortable, or sleep longer than maybe an hour. So I was exhausted and just not feeling right, but I didn't think I was having contractions just bowel movement cramping or something. But as the day went on the pain was getting worse, I started getting sharp painful pains in my cervix area, it didn't feel like a contraction to me but a very sharp shooting pain that would go away pretty quickly. I called Dr. Becker to see what she thought, she said to drink a lot of water and lay down and see if it gets any better. The pains would get better when laying down but when I got up it was an intense sharp pain right away. Texting Dr. Becker back and forth that these pains were not getting better the decision was made to go to the hospital. So I freak out, I don't want these babies yet I have all these mini goals in my head that I want to hit before they come and I was getting scared. The part I fear the most is how quick everything went when I went into the hospital with Kayla. All of the sudden I had 5 people in the room giving me shots in each arm moving onto a roller bed and trying their best to quickly explain what is going to happen very soon. It was very scary and so unknown and I really don't want that again. So going into the hospital unexpected is hard for me, but Mike and I were ready getting all needed bags packed for the just in case