Moon Broken

Had to post some of Kayla's cuteness. While looking for the moon in the sky the other night Kayla began to be sad. We asked why she was sad, she said, "oh no, the moon is broken." The moon was only a half moon and she was concerned because it wasn't full, she's so cute. :)

All is good, now we PRAY, PRAY, PRAY!!

Alright it happened we got the call to move forward with IUI, had to sign the multiples waiver and we were very happy to do so. Mike went in for his portion at 11am, things went just fine. I came in at 1pm, excited and nervous at the same time, I don't always do well with IUIs. But the nurse got through and we are good to go, now we pray. Lord, if this is your timing we pray that we will be blessed with another child. You told us to be fruitful and multiply we hope to do so with your blessings today. AMEN. :) Keep us in your prayers.

Follicle Check

Had my follicle check today at 7am yet again, I really don't like those early mornings. But it turned out well, ultrasound tech went to the right side first and there were my three big ones measuring 19mm, 18mm and 16mm so two are already considered mature the 16mm is borderline. The left side had the multiple 9mm's just like last time and one at 10mm, so that's good no big growth. They said I would probably do trigger tonight and IUI on Tuesday. I wanted my trigger shot right away I still get nervous that Dr. Minjarez will see my numbers and not let me continue. But Tuesday is not the best day for IUI, Mike has a meeting with BBBS from New Mexico about the Sports Buddies program and he has to be there, it's from 8am to 12pm. So we asked if it was alright to do the IUI in the afternoon, they said that would be fine but it would need to be at Lone Tree office and not Rose, Lone Tree is much further for Mike to drive. But we were going to make it happen and just praying that I would get a call back about instructions for the IUI. We went to church, then lunch with Mom at Red Lobster. Still no call I started to get worried that it was taking to long and I wasn't going to be able to continue on. But at about 3:30pm our prayers were answered. I got a call from the nurse who told me that my estrogen levels showed I had already started ovulating on my own, so IUI must be tomorrow, I would need to do half the trigger shot at 8pm to help the ovulation. This was wonderful, wonderful news I get to continue on and Mike doesn't have to worry about the big mess of Tuesday. We are so excited I even did a little happy fertility dance. When I had my cancelled cycle a while back and had almost close to this same situation I asked again and again if there was a paper I could sign to note that I understood the risk of multiples and wanted to continue. They said there was no form for me to sign. But guess what...I got that waiver I knew there had to be one. We have a higher risk of twins because of the two mature follicles. But I had two mature follicles with Kayla as well and we were blessed with only her. :) Then we have a very small chance of triplets so that is why I had to sign the paper, noting that it was alright to move forward and we are ready and prepared for what ever outcome might come. We are beyond excited and hope this is our cycle. :) Mike will go in for wash at 11am tomorrow and I have the IUI at 1pm. YEA!!!

Slow and Steady

So I had my ultrasound yesterday and I was left in a state of wonder. I went in around 2pm and they first looked at the left side where I had no growth all of the follicles were still 9mm or smaller. The right side however had three, she measured them and they turned out the be 13mm, 11mm and 10mm. So in three days my follicles or at least the largest one has only grown 3mm. That's slow but steady, at least we are seeing growth and not too many are growing. I think this is all good, I get my blood draw and have to head out with out getting to talk to a nurse. I don't get to chat with a nurse because I am growing so slow they wouldn't know what to tell me. Ultrasound needs to be sent to Dr. Minjarez and we will figure out the next steps from there. So I wait, around 6pm I get a call from Lisa and she says we are still good to go. I will do another 75IU's that night and maybe be doing two more depending on my estrogen level. I should get a call today on weather I should do two more days or not, so I am in a weird place. I get nervous about the three follicles that are growing and although I would of course like to always move forward I fear I would get to the end and then Dr. Minjarez is going to say we have to cancel. But I am hopeful I didn't even know if I would be able to still continue with the three I have. So yeah, that's where we are at so hopeful and fearful at the same time seems normal. :) I will update when I hear from the Dr. later today.

Cyst Check, 1st Follicle Check

So last Saturday I had my cyst check, I know I sound like a broken record but I hate them. My appointment was at 7:15am, I get in and called back right away. Ultrasound prep then check, all resting follicles no cysts....NO WAY!! We are done in five minutes then I go out to the desk where I am asked to pay $170. I wasn't even at the doctors office for more than 15 minutes. My first follicle check was a range of emotions, I went in at 7:45am on Sunday and was glad Mike was able to join me. We get in and notice 6 follicles on the left between 7mm to 9mm and 7 follicles on the right mostly 9mm one at 10mm and one at 8mm. The nurse came in to tell me what I already knew, "you have a lot of follicles" if they all continue to grow your cycle may be cancelled. Right then and there I get discouraged, more than anything else I do not want another cancelled cycle. I get home and start my research, when I had a cancelled cycle last time Nicole told me that the other doctor would sometimes perform a follicle reduction so that you can take out the extra follicles but leave the nice larger ones that would ovulate. She didn't say that Dr. Minjarez does that procedure but I am educating myself about it and hope I might be a candidate. I was down for the rest of the day and wondered if I should even continue on with the next ultrasound because I figured Dr. Minjarez wouldn't let me continue. But then around 12pm I got a call from one of the nurses that Dr. Minjarez wants me to do three more days of follistim injection at 75IUs. This call really took me back I had "so many follicles" why would she risk them all growing bigger? So more research, I learned that a resting follicle is between 3mm to 6mm and on cycle day 10 my largest follicle was 10mm so that is not a lot of growth in 10 days. Usually a follicle will grow about 2mm a day, so my thought is that Dr. Minjarez wants to give the follicles a chance to boost in growth and we all just pray that only one or two take charge. Personally I hope for two, I got pregnant with Kayla with two mature follicles so I feel two is my best chance. Because I still feel at risk for a cancelled cycle I have already e-mailed Lisa to ask if I can do a follicle reduction instead of cancelling. Currently I am still waiting to hear back, so I am back to being more hopeful but also realistic and again just pray I don't have to cancel so much money is put into this process and having to cancel and lose it all is not a good feeling. So I will see when I hear back from Lisa, hopefully soon and we will go from there.

Medical Records

So Mike and I decided we are staying with Dr. Minjarez for this coming cycle. I have already contacted Lisa and our first ultrasound is set for Saturday August 4th at 7:15am. I don't love the time but we are diffidently ready to get started. But the hard part about this all is the medical records after Mike and I decided we weren't going to stay with Dr. Woodford I went to her office and asked for my records so I could have them and bring them upstairs. But I guess that even if medical records belong to me I can not have them. I had to sign a paper allowing them to release them then have that paper signed by Dr. Woodford before I can have my own copy, and because I came in on a Friday I had to wait until Monday. I called Monday Dr. Woodford had signed the paper so I asked if they could send them by fax upstairs. They said they could be they were real busy so it would be later, so I e-mailed Lisa and asked her to let me know when they got them upstairs. Monday came to an end and Lisa e-mailed me to say they didn't get the records. There are four papers they need to send up so I wasn't understanding why it was so difficult. Tuesday came I waited until afternoon before I called them again and asked if they had sent records yet. Well on Tuesday they decided they couldn't just send my records up anymore, they wanted to charge me $20 for the four pieces of paper to send up. I was so upset they could fax it, I said I would personally come by and I would bring the papers up to Dr. Minjarez they then told me that Dr. Woodford required the $20 for the papers when I asked if the other Dr. charged the same I found out she didn't. So now I am just thinking Dr. Woodford is wanting whatever she can get out of me. So I e-mail Lisa again and ask if she can take my word on my records that my pregnancy test is negative Thyroid is 3.12 and I was put back on meds and all my insulin levels came back normal. Lisa said that would be fine but they still need the cyst check, at this point I am just ready to get started and although a cyst check for me with no history of cysts is just a waste of money we are ready for our first appointment on Saturday. What an experience glad to be done with the other doctor and move forward.

Try #4

Alright well here we go again. After taking a break from fertility treatments I didn't have a period for three months. I finally started a period at the end of last month and it lasted 25 days, yes almost a whole month. I will take it as a clearing of the female system to get ready for a baby. :) Mike and I have changed some things up since our last cycle. We were going to try cycle #4 with Dr. Minjarez our normal doctor but it felt I couldn't trust her word anymore. When I had asked if I could please use injections for my next cycle over the phone the answer was yes. When I called in to tell them I had started a period they asked me to come in on cycle day 5. Usually I don't have to go in on cycle day 5 so I asked why. They said that Minjarez wanted to check out my follicles before proceeding with the injections. What first came to my mind was for her to see one follicle and say "ok looks like you have one good one, let's not to injection this round." I know my body, one follicle does not work for me I need more than that to conceive, so I looked elsewhere. I found an RE that's actually in their same building but a floor down. Her name is Dr. Woodford, I was able to have a phone consult with her a few weeks back to see if her plan would be different from Dr. M's she said it would. She is willing to listen more to her patients and word work with me more. So I made my appointed to an insulin resistance test and meeting. I was the first patient in the building that day and was proud of myself for even being early. I had told them about the insulin draw and because that is a three our test I thought they would do that first thing. Instead they didn't say a thing about and call me back 20 minutes later to talk to Dr. Woodford, I then waited another 20 minutes and found out that Dr. Woodford wasn't even in the building yet for my appointment. When she came in, she came in scrubs and looked nothing like the picture I saw of her on the internet, I honestly didn't think it was her until she introduced herself. I was already annoyed that even though I was early to the appointment I had to wait an additional 40 minutes just to talk to her and repeat everything I had told her on the phone, it's like she had no idea I had ever talked to her. I brought Dr. M's medical records in with me and was already hesitant to hand them over. But she took them made copies then told me that she really liked Dr. M and would probably do the same things she did. I couldn't believe she said that, she had told me on the phone all the different things she would have done. But now she has changed her mind, when I had had the cancelled cycle I had asked if she would have let me proceed she said she would but then today she changed her mind and said she would have canceled like Minjarez did. So I am just getting more angry and upset that I brought my medical records into her in the first place. She also told me on the phone that if I was on a bleed I couldn't be pregnant so she would not need to do a pregnancy test each time and if I had no history of cysts she would not do a cyst check. Well after I spoke with her I asked about the insulin draw in which she had no idea what I was talking about and said I probably wouldn't be albe to do it today. But that was the whole reason I fasted last night and in the morning as well as why I had come in so early. So it was going go happen and I was going make sure of it, I went to get blood drawn and she then told I needed a pregnancy test because well I just have too. I was on a period so she was going back on her word, after the blood draw she asked for....yes a cyst check the ultrasound she said I wouldn't need if I didn't have a history of cysts and we just went over my history where I have none. So I am already done with this place feeling uncomfortable and I feel Dr. Woodford is unsure with herself and her practice, just doing whatever Dr. M would have done. I know that CCRM would require pregnancy test, and cyst check so I let it happen and decide I will just send over paper work at the end of the week. So I don't know yet if I am regretting this decision to try and find another dr or if it's just better to know I am with the right person but it was a frustrating day and I am ready to be done with it.