Crawlers

Well we officially have two crawlers now! Brooke is all over the place and loving it, she will crawl over to the sliding glass door and watch Kinley play then also loves to run her fingers over the heating vents because it makes a very neat sound. Jordyn decided it was her turn to explore more just yesterday and it now loving that she can find the smallest items on the ground to pick up and put in her mouth. Kinley had some stick from outside that she brought in it was very tiny and I didn't notice it, but Jordyn did! It's is so fun watching these two girls grow so differently and yet be the same age, they are growing like crazy and eating a ton. We go through about 6 to 8 jar foods a day, burning all those extra calories crawling around everywhere. We are still struggling with the whole potty training thing with Kayla. I don't know where I have gone wrong I have successfully potty trained many children but yet I can't train my own....very frustrating! She seems like she is interested but freaks out when we get to the toilet no incentive is working like I hoped. Keep us in your prayers as I am still trying to find a job so we can keep our heads above water, this process has been very hard and many tears have come with the unknown. We know the Lord will provide but just wish his timing was a bit sooner. :)

35 weeks

35 weeks this week and I feel huge. It feels like the babies are finding any unused space possible in my stomach and filling it up. I don't get hungry and all I want to do is sleep all the time. My poor daughter is just the best daughter in the world as she brings me stuffed animals when I drift off on the couch. I can't wait to take her on a walk, or to the park again but am so blessed that she plays so well by herself and thankful for the Disney channel right now too. This period of time will probably be the most amount of time she will watch this much tv. Although I don't sleep much and still scratch all over all the time I am so thankful I am still pregnant. I am beyond excited that I will get to hear my girls cry for the first time as I never got to hear Kayla's for over a week. Then the thought of being able to hold my babies moments after I have them is almost unreal. I had my appointment with Dr. Becker on Wednesday this week, they checked me for group B this apt and made sure I was not dilating. I have been feeling funny, but my blood pressure has stayed steady and low actually. But I was sent over to get blood work to check my liver and gall bladder to make sure I wasn't feeling funny because of a different problem. Everything is coming back normal, I am not dilated at all, my blood work came back normal I just feel this way because I have two babies in me. My group B was also perfect as normal is 0 to 5 and I am 2.99, so everything is really going well. Although I wish I were more hungry these babies need to grow so much and I just never feel like eating, don't worry I do eat I just snack all day. I am getting nervous and excited for next week, I will be 36 weeks on Monday and get my cerclage out. I have about a 50/50 chance of going into labor or keeping them in there. Because it's hard to tell how the babies are positioned now I get to do another ultrasound on Monday as well. They will check approximate weights and see if Baby A is head down. I still pray for that every day but have also accepted that if a c-section is what I need it is meant to be. I would love to stay pregnant until I am 37 weeks because these babies would not have a label of preemie attached them them instead they would both be considered term. But Mike and I are also very ready for their arrival. It is getting so close......so close!

24 Weeks

What a roller coaster appointment yesterday. I had my 24 week apt with Dr. Becker at 2pm, this was also my blood glucose draw so hopefully those results come back good. First I had the hardest time finding a place to park, and ending up on the 5th level of the parking garage. It's difficult for a pregnant woman to get around so having to park so far away was already tough. Dr. Becker then did an alpha protein swab this can indicate a possible early delivery. Or a delivery that could come in the next two weeks, then we did the cervix check. Looked good to me but the technician didn't say anything while scanning, and then took some quick not so good blurry pictures of the babies. (If I was ever a ultrasound tech and would try hard to get a good pic of the baby for the mom's to take home.) After that it was back to the waiting room then called back for the glucose blood draw, I was bummed that I forgot to have them do a thyroid check with my blood draw so I will have to add then in my next appointment. After Dr. Becker measured my stomach which is measuring 34 weeks, and I'm only 24, (I am going to be so big) she showed me my ultrasound pictures of my cervix. What she saw was a funnel of black that was coming down the cervix, she said it looked like the water bag and I need to go see Dr. Adelberg to confirm, but because of this I will need to start bed rest that day. First I would need to be monitored for contractions and get my alpha protein results back. If I showed I was having contractions I could be admitted to the hospital, and if my alpha protein came back positive I could need a steroid shot for the babies. So my world just turned upside down, she was asking how I was going to tell parents about me being on bed rest. If I had some sort of help with Kayla and telling me what I can do while I lay in bed all day, and hopefully at home and not in the hospital. So I cry, freak out a bit about money issues, call Mike hope to not cry while talking to him but I can't keep it in. Mike was so positive usually I am the one who stays more positive in situations like this but he was my rock when I needed him. While I am walking to Dr. Adelbergs office everything is going through my mind, can Adam move in with us, what am I going to tell the parents. How are we going to handle this financially, I take a deep breathe and call my mom to update her. She can't believe it, so close to when I went in with Kayla and we thought everything was going so well. But she was staying positive too. I got to Dr. Adelbergs, while waiting to be called back I cry again these situations are tough, adding on pregnancy hormones does not help. I got called back and they put me on the contraction monitor and left me in the room until a room became available. I was thankful to see no action on the monitor, it stayed a very nice straight line the whole time. When a room became available I went in for another cervix check. When the tech looked she said it looked normal to her, I didn't know what that meant I was still in shock. The tech then told me to watch the black area on the ultrasound while they pushed on my stomach, when they did this my water sac should be protruding out but it wasn't. They tried this twice and both times noticed that the fluid didn't change, so I felt happy about this but still didn't know what it meant for bed rest and future. Finally Dr. Adelberg came in, and settled all my concerns, the black they are seeing must be mucus which also shows up black in an ultrasound. She doesn't think it could be amniotic fluid because nothing changed both times they pushed on my belly. So I can still work, but they were still up in the air about the steroid shot. Thankfully my alpha protein came back negative, and I was finally able to go home, I was there for three hours, cried three times and was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief. But I do have to keep my life calm, no exercise, not much lifting, and sitting with my feet up as much as I can. This is much better than bed rest, I pray I can continue to stay "together" my next appointment in two weeks with Dr. Adelberg again. This will be at 26 weeks, it will be crazy to be home at 26 weeks with two babies healthy in my belly, even more crazy at 28 weeks, but I can do it with God's help of course. :)Keep the good positive prayers coming!

23 weeks

I am starting to get nervous, 23 weeks is only two weeks away from 25 weeks. 25 weeks was when I went into the hospital with Kayla. Although I am feeling confident that this pregnancy will be full term it's still messing with my head a bit. I have been doing a bit of the nesting stage pregnant mom's do, because for me I feel I need things ready by 28 weeks. It's been nice though because I have been getting stuff done, we got the second crib with Adam's truck, thank you Adam. Then I was also able to start cleaning and organizing the garage so we can move things out of the room, and start cleaning and organizing the room which has been fun. The bummer part of this week was some new uncomfortably, I think my belly is growing again because I have been in some good pain. It's been really hard to sleep and then Kayla got sick with a fever which kept her up at night too, so it was a bit of a hard week for us this week. But I was able to get some protein shakes that I will try, GNC stuff sure is expensive! But now I want the pregnancy pillow which looks like a big pillow shaped like a C. I am hoping it might help me sleep, the reviews have been good and many pregnant moms said once they got it they weren't able to sleep without it. Hopefully I can get some new relief soon and more sleep, Kayla's fever has gone away and she is sleeping better now.

22 weeks

We went to the perinatologist for my 22 week check up, and I and the twins are doing great! I always get a cervix check when I see the peri because of my incompetence, and amazing enough my cervix was measuring even longer than our last exam. So that was very wonderful for I and the doctor to see. Then at our last peri appt Baby A had some larger kidneys that the doctor wanted to keep an eye on. Larger kidneys could mean that the urine isn't able to to get out normally so it could create small to big problems when the baby was born depending on the growth of the kidneys. Well today Baby A's kidneys were back to normal size and looking wonderful, so we got even more good news. Lastly Baby A is currently head down, it would awesome if she would stay that way so I can deliver vaginally. So I pray she is head down in the next couple of ultrasounds we have. The doctor told me she can't find anything to complain about, so I hope we can keep it that way. I will be doing my glucose test for my next 24 week appointment so my next prayer is that there is no gestational diabetes and I can continue on with a pretty "normal" pregnancy. Hooray for a good appointment!!

My love/hate relationship with food

I am so glad I can eat a full meal right now because soon enough I know I won't be able to anymore and it will be back to eating many small meals. But at the same time, it hurts to much to eat a full meal. Now when I eat a big meal my stomach feels like it rests in my chest, but it's not a heartburn feeling thankfully just a really annoying can not get comfortable in any position feeling. I will take on any and all of these uncomfortable feelings with a smile on my face because I am so blessed. But I can't help but wondering, if I am only 21 weeks what am I going to feel like in another month. I guess I should just say bring on the uncomfortably, I need to find a wonderful prenatal masseuse and I will proudly wear my tiger stripes when they come. :)Because I still couldn't be more excited to bring twins into our family.

21 Weeks

Because we had to cancel our appointment last week for a vet appointment for Bailey I had my Becker appointment today. Becker appointments are always simple and pretty uneventful, I was told I am gaining enough weight for two so that was nice to hear. I feel I don't eat as much as I thought I would eat with making two babies. But seems I am doing alright, I think I am going to start getting a protein shake supplement I don't crave protein as much as I should and I know the babies need it so I plan to put that on the "to get" list as well as a belly band. I mentioned my trouble sleeping and pain in my lower back to Becker and she said it would be a great idea to get one of those. The babies are doing great, growing and moving like crazy. I can't feel all the movement yet that Becker could see on the ultrasound but I feel more and more each day. The bummer news for the day was that both the babies are breech and I really want a vaginal delivery not a c-section. If baby A stays in breech position and is still that way at 32 weeks I will have to plan a c-section. So that is my new prayer that baby A will do a good flip and then stay that way. :) So good news for the day, we are very excited for our perinatal appointment next Friday the 18th. We were told we would be able to do the 4D ultrasound those are amazing! So hopefully we will have some good pictures to share.

20 weeks

My life is so consumed with my poor dog Bailey right now that I apologize to my little ones inside for the stress I have been under this last week. The girls are doing well and have been active, I notice that baby A is either more active or maybe just closer to the front of the belly. It was cute the other day when I felt baby A moving a ton and then she must have kicked her sister because baby B gave a big quick move out of the way move. When imagining what it would be like to carry twins I always wondered if I would be able to tell the different between the two, and you diffidently do. Pregnancy is going well and smoothly and I am very thankful for that especially now since my life has been pretty consumed by my dogs issues. But I am having some growing pains that do cause me to wake up a couple times in the night worried something is going wrong. I wonder if my stomach will just continue to go outward or if I will start to expand more widely. I am probably almost as big or just as big as I got when I delivered Kayla, so I am excited to see what kind of pregnant woman I will look like? Bring on the stretch marks.